i HOPE he remembers

I lay in his arms last night and cried like a baby.

We had been out and were fairly drunk- of course... lying in the darkness chatting, I made a joke about him not even telling his mother about me, and his response was “well it will all end horrifically so I didn’t see the need” which of course, he too was joking about….

That was it, I just cried a stifled, held back, self conscious cry, and he said are you crying…? I said “no” and then cried some more… but he knew.

He just hugged me.

Said everything I wanted to hear

And told me to stay.

Here.

With him.

And after a while it just fell out,

I said “I love you”

In my subconscious a giant hand clasped my mouth shut and the word ‘shit’ reverberating round my brain. All of a sudden I broke into a clammy sweat….

“what was that?” he said…

Thankfully sleep found us both swiftly after.

coffee stained empathy. heart racing in the slowest possible motion so you can watch it crack and crumble, seize and stumble. rain coat guard, and nothing is safe in this love zone. temper fuelled desire and a pandemic of sensuality. almost lovers and unstable affairs. ticking clock in a backwards sway, casting shadows on your heart, flames flicker with intoxication, close to explosion. ticking time bomb and your not scared, nor confident. pony tail ambition, tied to the top of the tallest tree and you cast your heart upon the stars and hope that the oxygen won't fan it back into the palms of reality. melodies swiftly taking charge and whispering sweet nothings into the form of a story that ushers that hearts are broken every day, point well taken but never strayed from, a caution that should be marked on ever love, long or short, great or not. time playing like pirates, marking your heart with such fierceness you would think it would hold all the glitter in the world, but approach with open mind, and do not use such safeguard as security, nothing is security.. nothing in the sky.. nothing will be so vast and last forever, it's not meant to happen. clever tricks wrapped in lullabies spelling sultry embellishments which mask their pain with icing like misery cupcakes.









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